let the sun illuminate the words that you cld not find

i am and i will be very busy with projects and assignments for the whole of this month. i feel like i havent slept in a thousand years. my brain is not functioning properly, my eye bags are heavy and obvious and i can hardly find time to do anything at all.

i feel........ lost. again.
the news hit me at my worst possible time and i don't know how shld i react. it has been on my mind for the past 48 hrs and i'm pretty sure its gna leave a huge scar in my emotional bank account. again. AGAIN. when can i ever withdraw all of it. i wna leave everything behind. i wna erase all of this unpleasant memories.
this time, THIS TIME, i'm very determined to leave it all behind and move on already. i know i've said this before but yes, this time i will. your words ain't gna bring me down, instead, it spurred me to pick myself up to prove you wrong. i'm gna show you and make you eat your words. i'm not gna be affected by this anymore. ANYMORE!

k byebye

relieved :)

yay i passed all of my subjects except csa :) though almost all are borderline passes, am still glad and relieved!

met jean and lh for breakfast yesterday morning and we cabbed to school after that. am meeting jean tomorrow morning again for breakfast! :)
i just got my allowance for this month today and i swear i'm gna spend it sparingly and start saving up for my shopping spreeeeeee with bf! there's just so much i wna buy. oh yes and i'll be going for ballet under the stars 09 with jean and esther! picnic!!! omgggg i can't wait can't wait can't wait!

moon, i'm so disappointed in you :( after all that we've been thru tgt, you still can't make a choice! she stole my friend away!

k i'm just kidding don't take it to heart haha!

every other day

:)

F GRADER

i think i did badly for my mid semester tests though i haven't got back all of my papers except csa. i flunk my csa theory paper which was quite expected so now i just hope my excel project fetch me some good marks to pull up my overall grade cause i don't wna retake csa again in year 2! ok with that aside now, i don't think i'm gna do well for the other subjects :( but i can only blame myself for it. i was really affected by B that point in time cause we were going thru a tough patch. as much as i regret now, i can't do much cause what's done cannot be undone. i just have to work twice as hard now so i can do well for the exams in aug-sep to help pull up my overall grades. i'm pretty disappointed and i don't feel good at all.
seeing everyone around me do well, i feel embarrassed of myself.

stronger

friendly game w the current bdiv squad and the graduates. i had fun :)

so my weekends were spent on trngs and games. i gave school a miss tday because i woke up with a bad headache. woke up at around 1, met b at the int and we went for lunch. went t school aftermath for trng. ayg soccer was held in our school so we cldn't use the courts and we had t train beside the design school canteen but it was fun and enriching? well at least i learnt something useful and different. first lesson at 9 tmrw ): why can't they just shift every first lesson to after 12?! i need more sleep srsly.
joy's bday celebration on tmrw with baby girls. b won't be able to come because he has a game on ): but it's okay, i bet it'd be fun. and guess what's the best part of it all? lessons start at 12 on wednesday!!!


i will make it, girl
whatever it takes

14th :)

i missed tp's trng yesterday morning because well... i cldn't wake up but i went for nike trng. (: met mh chris and val at leisure before trng. swoosh had game while the rest carried on with trng but halfway thru it rained quite heavily so we seeked shelter and supported swoosh! (: dinner aftermath with the rest at leisure, short walk and talk session w bf and home w the rest!

tday, i met b and we took a quick lunch at whitesands before heading to dhoby ghaut for movie! we caught 'drag me to hell'. obviously i didn wna watch it but b insisted that it's very nice and he managed to convince me into watching the movie in the end. i seriously pay to scare myself hahaha. after movie we took a train down to serangoon and we had our dinner at chomp chomp! bus home after dinner. (:

original plan for tomorrow is sentosa outing with my classmates buttttt it's the time of the month so i decided to give it a miss ): i'm sorry!

so i guess it's trng tomorrow in school w new coach.

byebye

thankful

i'm so sorry jean and esther, for turning down your job offers at the IT fair this week. i know it's stupid saying no to money but i've got trainings and family gatherings this weekend and i do not want to be labelled "irresponsible" if i were to report to work late, disappear from work every 10 minutes or take m.c. at the eleventh hour. i mean, you guys know me best, esp jean, right? hehehe.

last weekend was awesome! sentosa with babies in the morning and chomp chomp for dinner at night. i'm sorry meiling! i missed your bday celebration but i've not forgotten really! i made you a card and i'll pass it to you this friday kay! (: happy bday girl!

i guess things btw. b and myself are slowly but surely improving. i hope i stays this way.

and so, life's been great so far. love the holidays!!! :D

i miss so many people... bf, partner, nv bdiv 08/09 and of course, b. am totally looking forward to the friendly game on the 18th!
see yall!

take a breath, i pull myself tgt

i don't know what caused the change in you, but i want you to know that i'll never give up on you
i guess its my fault
i don't know what to say, or what i can do
i just hope you'll understand how i feel
i hope time really heals

everybody around you is willing to help you, but if you don't help yourself, there's nthg we can do
if you're reading this, i just wna let you know that, i'll always be here with you

thanks j, bf, pie, partner, l
i feel much better now.



p/s: i love you

Exhausted

i know this is the part where the end starts

i know you'll ask me to hold on
carry on like nothing's wrong
but there is no more time for lies
cause i see sun set in your eyes



thought that we were stronger

dilemma

ON HIATUS.

TILL AFTER MID SEM TESTS.
BYEBYE

torn

time and time again, you break my heart unknowingly. keep your fucking attitude off me, i dont deserve that. i tried my best to salvage this, but i guess we just not meant to be. you always claim i'm your priority, your everything but you and i both know, i'm not. lets just be calm and take a break. i love you







i just cant take these tears
i hate this part right here

Self Control

hihihihihihihihihi

uniform day on friday was fun!
trng was......... okay.
new coach
study session with jagger lian ckay kenrick asyraf and gracie baby
brunch w gracie
tm with ckay asyraf gracie
new pencil case
81 with asyraf to my grandma's place
dinner with family
home

byebye

i'm lovin' it

yay i love my klazxzxzx :)

FINALLY I'VE FINISHED AND SUBMITTED MY CSA EXCEL PROJECT. PHEWWWW

and mel babygirl, i'm lovin' every bit of my red e71 woohoooooo
kay bye! lessons tomorrow at 11! csa ):

goodnight yall

you'll never know the way it tears me up inside

school was tiring as usual. mid-sem tests coming in less than a weeks' time! i've to start studying already ):

econs tutorial ended at 4 today, headed to tampines with some of my classmates. when wx and the rest left, andrew mel and i went t starbucks for a drink. met mom at the station went t collect my card and i got a new phone! thanksssss mommy i love you!
dinner at ding tai fung, shopped at t1 and home after that.

and also, i've decided not to be so mean anymore. i mean, i wldn't wna be put in her shoes. i'm sure i know how bad it feels. i'm sorry for being mean ):

kay meeting grace wx ck and daryl for brunch tomorrow! till then :)
byebye

i lost my phone ):

happy birthday mummy, jia min(cuz), uncle jake! :)

accounts lesson from 9-11 tday, lunch and proj after that. i was friggin' tired by the time we finished pom, nevertheless, i went t meet annoying b who made me wait 30 mins for him. took a bus down t compass point. while waiting for b t change out of his dri-fit shirt, i reached for my phone in my bag and only then i realised it went missing ): i dont know if i should be happy or sad hahaha okay maybe more of happy cause i'm gna get a new phone! but sadly, it's not iphone cause starhub does not carry iphone!!! sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh
kay anyway daddy bought crabs home for dinner! uncle got mom chocolate cake from bakerzin.

i didn do my econs homework cause i didn attend lecture last week! :/
csa proj tomorrow ):
byebye

lm's seventeen :)

happy (early) 17th baby!!! :) hope you enjoyed!

celebrated lm's birthday early cause jean's going overseas next weekend! awesome bbq dinner at hil's friend's condo, stayed till 12am then took a cab back to lm's place to stayover. talk crap play games till around 4 plus and then we all collapsed to bed. woke up at 12 this afternoon, left with cheryl and b. i took a bus home :) rest of the photos are up in facebook!
k am gna change and head out to my grandma's place! mummy's bday tomorrowww :)
byebye

csa and pom proj after lessons tomorrow :/

yes! :)

happy 19th selena gf!! :)

i'm home like finally after changing 3 buses from school thanks huh val sl my lm! k anyway i was reaaaaallllllllly determined about not having dinner after trng but in the end, hunger took the better of me and i'm enjoying sinful food(maggi mee) right now hahaha. i like trng today! i just feel very contented and happy yay very looking forward to next week's trng!!! :)

k bye!

p/s: rest of the photos are with xin!

yes?

recently, somebody told me, 'maybe not to you, but to me, netball is not my dream/life anymore.'


is netball still my life?
it sucks being in my shoes now. i'm in a dilemma

lessons end at 11 tday! pom project after school at the library. completed first two points and some of us left for tm t get selena's bday gift! shopped around, went home and i napped till 7.30! annoying b had stupid trng >:(
kay i'm off t watch antm byebye

too little, too late

yellow teeth! :S


psp analog button not working! its the second time already blhj!!!
k bye school tomorrow at 9 ):

dont wanna try

i woke up at 1 tday, spent my afternoon studying with chris and mh :) met b after his match and accompanied me t my grandma's place! skipped dinner but i had macs for supper heeheh i think i gained all of the fats i lost during trng. now you see why there's no improvement in me even with trngs and school!! selena's bday celebration is cancelled because she's in the finals for some competition tomorrow night! all the best gf! sooooooo i'm gna fix my psp again at sim lim w b! meeting ml and the rest in the late afternoon to pass my her file and book. forgetful girl left her stuff w me aft trng on friday. k anyway i'm very happy because i manage to complete my econs and accts tutorial tday! so random

k i'm looking forward t monday because lessons end at 11am!!!!! :D town aft school t get selena's present and shopping!!! veh excited please

:) byebye

jean, if you read this, youre not forgotten girl.

fickled minded

i just got home from trng! ended at ten, changed out, packed macs and i cabbed home from kallang againnnnn its friggin' 14 bucksss ): trng will be on sat next week onwards yay
i shld stay positive right now cause i know if i dont persevere, i'll never get my chance ever but i'm feeling how everyone else wld feel if they were in my shoes, discouraged :/ sigh
i just hope its a blessing in disguise.


anyway mh told me i was reallllllllllyyyyyyy very skinny before. so i guess i seriously put on alot of weight ): i feel the fats on me everytime i move ): the stupid orange trng tee looks so friggin' tight on me now! i mean, how can i not out on weight when i'm constantly having supper
so this time round(hopefully) i'm gna run everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please jolene, be determined or you'll turn into a sow in no time, besides, i need t work on my stamina as well, i feel extremely out of breath everytime i run hahahahah


kkk i'm waiting for big fatty b t finish his supper bathe and call me. byebye

i'm everything i am, because you loved me

dear girls wx and selena! :)

kerensaaa :)

graceeeeeeeee hunnnehhh :)

ultimate gays lian and andrew
ivan daryl ckay :)


lab was boring to the maxxxx! skipped csa lecture tday met b at school bus stop :) took a bus down to e!hub for dinner at burger king and we caught 'the uninvited' hahahah half of the time i was busy covering my eyes. aft the movie, i swore never to watch horror AGAIN
lessons till six and trng tomorrow! i need more hours of sleep pleaseeeee
k i'm gna call b. bye!




i just cant take these tears

fragmented

happy 13th :] i love you


finally i've more than five hours of sleep very contented yay. k i feel like sleeping already i need to cherish my 8 hours of sleep bye! i love schoooooooooooooooooooool (i think its only my class hahah)


cheer up wx! :)

dont leave me hanging

pictures of val's bday, mothers' day, ivan's bday, fareast with classmates! :]




after 2 hrs of accounts tutorial tday, we headed t biz park t celebrate ivan's bday! :] (happy bday ivan!) lunch with wx, selena, daryl, grace and cecilia at pizza hut! last min decision t head t fareast cause wx and grace wanted t get sch bag heheh so now 3 of us have the same bag yay! met b at pasir ris t study and home for dinner! caught a bit of michelle and shaun's wedding. :) school tomorrow at 9am........................... ): i'm gna sleep NOW. bye!


you know where you stand in my heart. i trust that our friendship is strong. :)

driving thru the snow on fifth avenue

BFF! :]

1B11 :]

celebrated val's birthday yesterday with the lkks. before that i met mhbf at town t get my bag and val's gift! left t meet the rest arnd 630 at chinatown and then vivo! hope you had fun girl, happy 18th! :]

tday i had lunch w family at my aunt's bak kut teh shop. met melissa! (mh are you reading this? hehe) supposed t meet jean but there weren't enough cars t chauffeur family home my dad had t drop us off at my grand's place and i didn bring my books along so plan was called off ): sorry jean! meet up soon k! b promised t meet me tday but he just had t go t www with his family hmmmmppppph i'm damn angry :/

k i'm gna sleep now or i doubt i can wake up in time t meet wx and daryl tmr bye!